Like all the apostles, Peter was present when Jesus preached the sermon on the mount. When Jesus first spoke the beatitudes, Peter was standing right there. One can only guess how those simple, upside-down phrases troubled his mind. Blessed are the poor, the mourners, the meek, the justice-seekers, the merciful, the pure in heart, the peacemakers and the persecuted. What young men think that sounds like blessing?
Jesus had recruited Peter in the act of fishing. He dropped the net and followed. People did that with Jesus; he had amazing charisma. He told Peter he would make him into a fisher of men, which suggested (at least) a cause that would recruit others. Young men have been known to find that attractive, building a movement by gathering followers.
When he heard the beatitudes, however, Peter must have been bewildered. This was bait for fishers of men? Who would bite?
Perhaps Peter thought he understood what Jesus was after. A simple lifestyle, identification with the poor, rejection of the status quo and its corruption, radical obedience to God—all building toward a new kingdom, one in which God himself would reign through Jesus and his disciples. That made some revolutionary sense.
A close reading of incidents in Peter’s life, however, reveal that he was still far from understanding.
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The gospels tell us far more about Peter than any other of the disciples, giving us some idea of the struggle he went through. It all started well. Very early in Peter’s association with Jesus, his own mother-in-law was healed. (Matthew 8:14-15) Like all the disciples, Peter saw Jesus heal many people, evict evil spirits, even feed crowds and restore life to dead people. Jesus helped Peter to walk on water. (Matthew 14:22-31) Jesus’s signs and wonders gave plenty of reason to keep following him.
Jesus’s teaching was more difficult. It was often confusing, frequently confrontational, and always demanding. The parables Jesus used were opaque to his disciples. On a number of occasions, the gospels report some version of the following: “They did not understand what this meant. It was hidden from them, so that they did not grasp it, and they were afraid to ask him about it.” (Luke 9:45)
According to John’s gospel, the struggle to absorb Jesus’s teaching eventually came to a head, and “many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.” (John 6:66)
Jesus asked the twelve whether they, too, wanted to leave. “Simon Peter answered him, ‘Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.’”
That answer sounds heroic, but at a deeper level it reveals that the disciples knew they were stuck. Peter didn’t tell Jesus they were as happy as clams. He said they couldn’t see any alternative. Clearly, Jesus’s disciples were struggling to stick it out.
Later, Jesus asked his disciples what people were saying about him. After hearing a sampling of opinion, he asked point blank, “What about you? Who do you say I am?”
Peter spoke for them all: “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.” (Matthew 16:16) Jesus praised him warmly for that answer.
Then Jesus began to explain his future death. “Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. ‘Never, Lord!’ he said. ‘This shall never happen to you!’”
Jesus responded with the harshest words he ever spoke. “Get behind me, Satan!”
Peter could not grasp that Jesus’s glorious calling incorporated the hard blessings of the beatitudes. They were not just for disciples. They were for the master, too. He would lead the way to the bottom, through suffering to death, and any attempt to think otherwise was a distraction from God’s ways. Blessed are the poor in spirit. Blessed the persecuted.
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That was a harsh confrontation, but Jesus didn’t hold it against Peter. He invited him for the Transfiguration (Matthew 17:1-13) and playfully involved him in the paying of the temple tax. (Matthew 17:24-27) Peter was still grappling to understand. He approached Jesus with a question: how many times should I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Seven times? (Matthew 18:21)
Seven times is a lot to forgive somebody who hurts you; two or three is a lot. Peter remembered the beatitude, “Blessed are the merciful.” He was trying to find the limit. Surely seven pardons was the outer limits of the demands of mercy.
Not according to Jesus. He answered, “not seven times, but seventy-seven.” By the time you get to seventy-seven, who’s counting? Jesus was shredding the very idea of maintaining standards. Mercy never reaches a limit. Forgiveness trumps everything.
Then came the Passover. During the regular ceremonial meal, Jesus silently wrapped a towel around his waist and began to wash the disciples’ feet. Peter objected strongly: this was lowly servants’ work, not fit for Jesus. “You shall never wash my feet.” He still did not understand that the beatitudes applied to Jesus, too. Blessed are the meek. Jesus is meek.
“Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”
After the meal, Jesus told his disciples they would all fall away from him before the night was over. Peter could not stand this. “Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will.”
“I tell you the truth,” Jesus answered, “this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times.”
Peter refused to accept it. “Even If I have to die with you, I will never disown you.” (Matthew 26:35)
When Peter thought of dying with Jesus, he apparently meant to go down fighting. As Jesus was being arrested, Peter pulled out a sword and took a hack, cutting off a servant’s ear. (Seemingly, he missed; he was a fisherman, after all, not a warrior.) Jesus told him to put the sword away. There is no place for weapons in the beatitudes.
Jesus was fully prepared to die. Peter, for all his talk, was not. His fears blossomed later that night when he shadowed Jesus into the high priest’s domain. Despite his pledges, when feeling threatened Peter vehemently denied any acquaintance with Jesus. The third time, a rooster crowed and Peter remembered Jesus’s prediction. “He went outside and wept bitterly.” (Matthew 26:75) He had failed in every way, and he knew it—failed as a warrior defender, failed as a follower of the beatitudes and their blessed peacemaking.
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Then it all changed. In the book of Acts, I see no sign of this weeping, struggling Peter. He acts as a strong and confident leader of the newly founded church. He defies the religious authorities when they try to prevent him from preaching. He opens the doors for non-Jews to join in the Christian assembly. His preaching majors on the death and resurrection of Jesus and the forgiveness they offer to anyone. One perceives nothing of the man whom Jesus had to rebuke and correct repeatedly.
Peter had been converted. His process of conversion was the same one all of us must undergo. Only through the repeated discipleship of Jesus, wrapped in disappointments, hurt and disillusionment, do we begin to experience the word, “Blessed are the poor in spirit.”
Peter’s book of 1 Peter glows with this understanding. By the time he wrote he was an old man. He had been imprisoned and threatened with execution. His church had been exiled from Jerusalem, harassed and persecuted all through Palestine. In giving advice to a suffering, scattered church, Peter taught Jesus’s view as he had finally understood it. Suffering was not the exception in life, the bad stuff that must be borne. It was the heart of the Christian life, precisely because it was the heart of Jesus’s life. He suffered and died. So must we.
First Peter is full of this view of suffering. In his rambling style Peter returns to the subject compulsively. Here is the heart of it.
Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler. However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. (1 Peter 4:12-16)
Can you hear the voice of the man who objected to Jesus’s prediction of his own death? That voice is gone. Peter now understands. The beatitudes are not extreme and unreachable. They are not high-flying ideals, never applied to life. They are the text of life. We struggle to believe that, but it is what Jesus believed. He taught it patiently to Peter and all his disciples. He lived it. He died it.
And because he lived and died it, he rose. Just as we, too, will rise to share in his glory.
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Not yet, however. We, the fat and sated children of a self-congratulating civilization, can hardly believe the beatitudes, let alone practice them. For us, turning the other cheek is often a joke, not a precept. We do not much experience persecution and poverty. We have no reason to be meek and we don’t want to mourn.
Me neither.
The call to follow Jesus is and always has been a strange call. It means dying to yourself. Jesus apparently was serious about that, but how do we get serious?
Jesus wants this for his disciples because it will bless us.
I don’t know how we can become believers, following Peter’s journey. God will have to do it; we can’t do it for ourselves. Our celebrity evangelical culture certainly won’t help.
God has other messengers, however. Many Christians in the world are not fat and sated and comfortable. Many are hungry, poor, and persecuted. Possibly they will lead us.
Or perhaps life itself will teach us. I have now reached an age when it becomes impossible to deny that I am going to die. Before my friends or I do that, many of us will be very sick—and sick at heart. Few of us will be fat and sated until the end. Perhaps, if we are willing, old age will strip away our delusions and help us to reach the beatitudes as a guide and a promise. It may be our last chance to follow Peter on his journey.